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[04 Apr 2004|05:54pm]
Woo, two weeks off..

But urrgh, I'm so hungover. I went to Bexy's party last night, everyone was letting their hair down completely. I don't want to begin to remember how much I drank. I really should stop drinking so much. Hopefully going to join a gym this week. I really need to tone up, I'm all... flabby. Plus, I've eaten crap all weekend. I only got two hours of sleep last night, I've fallen asleep countless times today. I've got quite a lot of Graphics work to do over the holiday, grr.

Going to see Kyle tomorrow. I've got to tell Hannah I can't make it to Norwich until Wednesday or Thursday too. She's not going to be happy about that. Other than that, that's pretty much been it for the last dew days... Boring. Oh, but I did buy two new pairs of jeans yesterday, go me. I'll post some party pictures on here if I get some =)
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[26 Mar 2004|11:47pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Yeah, so I've been drinking again.

No more for me this weekend.

Anyway, it's been a while since I've updated, I guess.

( New picture.)

That's not a particularly good picture, either. Hmmm. Hello to my new friendy, sweetestvibe. I've just got back from Martyn's, Nick's staying there all weekend so he invited me over to watch a film over a bottle of wine. I'm in one of those moods where I'm just confused about nothing at all. Weird. Does that happen to anyone else? Hmmm, I doubt it. =\ It's Kate's birthday tomorrow, so I'm off to hers to celebrate. I am not getting smashed tomorrow. I think I might write something in a while, I'm in the mood to write. Even though I'm knackered. Maybe I can do something constructive with this ...brainfuck.

Sorry to everyone that reads this, congratulations if you've got this far, it's all bollocks. Bexy's online so I could possibly find myself talking bollocks to her until the early hours. Sounds promising.

What if Miss Right suddenly walked into my life.. I was thinking about that today. What if.. I feel I know who she is, but she's just got no idea, and is out of reach? Liking/lusting after someone like crazy and ... and.. I can't have her. Just, forget about it. Maybe I should stop looking. Maybe someone will come to me. Maybe I should stop fucking whining about it all the time and actually get on with things.

I Wish I could.

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[22 Mar 2004|08:03pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Hmmm, I can see a pattern forming, I only update every week or so.

(*Mental note to self - update more*)

Had a pretty busy weekend, saturday was spent getting my new phone (veeery cool) and going out to lunch with my Dad. Sunday was Mother's day, no less. I found myself spending ridiculous amounts of money on two big bunches of flowers. Oh well, only once a year I suppose. (That makes me sound a tight bastard, I'm not really =p)

Spoke to Hannah for about an hour yesterday, going up to see her in the holidays. I'm not really sure what's going on with us at the moment.. It's quite nice all the same. She seems a little concious of some of my ex girlfriends, though. She mentioned how they were all pretty femme, and she's not.. hmmm. I'm just trying to point out that it doesn't matter.

It's my birthday on wednesday!


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[22 Mar 2004|07:27pm]
So I memorized the color of your eyes
As I lost myself inside you
And I memorized the way our legs entwined
As I drifted off beside you

I miss, God I miss
Waking up beside you

But now I cling to you
I'm so afraid
Afraid a day will come
And I'll wake and find you gone
But you promised that you'd not abandon me
And then kissed my fears away
But I woke up to that day

But I memorized the way out eyes would meet
Reflected in the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette
As you slowly brushed your hair

But I'd memorized how warm your body felt
As you lay half asleep beside me.
And I memorized the way the sunlight filled the room
And played upon your body

I miss, God I miss
Waking up beside you
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[15 Mar 2004|07:14pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

After last night's escapades and only about 30 minutes sleep, rough is an understatement. After going to bed at about 10:30, then waking up half an hour later feeling sick and somewhat confused, I decided it would be a good idea to have an all night film marathon. I eventually fell asleep at about 6am, and had to be up by 7am. I don't quite know how I did it.

How did I get in that state anyway? By drinking two bottles of wine at my sister's. Ugh. I've been suffering all day, definately going to bed soon. My poor liver. I think I should quit drinking for a while.
Famous last words.

My exams start on wednesday, first up is german. Although it's maths I'm worst at. Fuck. I have Geography tomorrow though, yes, you know what that means =D Ohhh gorgeous laydee. In other news, Hannah told me she fancied me when I was drunk last night.. Aww. She's lovely, bless her. I don't know what to do. No change there. Makes a change for someone to like me.. I was kind of taken back when she told me. But I don't think I could be in another relationship where my girlfriend's about an hour away, it's so difficult.

I suppose it's just a matter of time.

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[14 Mar 2004|08:59pm]
So drunk. So drunk. I have no idea what i'm saying to people
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[13 Mar 2004|06:33pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Today was probably the most uneventful day I've had this year. Although I'm not complaining, I need some time to recuperate after being shit-faced last weekend. Eughh. After spending a good four hours at the hairdressers fannying around with highlights, I went shopping and then to see my Nan. My hair looks quite cool, I've sort of half mohicaned it, a bit Alex Parks-like. But shorter. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not. I certainly won't have as many women after me as she does, anyway. Argh, stop putting yourself down.

-End of whinge-

I better start doing some work in a minute, before I get into the sort of mood where I don't want to work at all.
Bloody science.

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[12 Mar 2004|06:07pm]
I seriously need to let off some steam. All day I've been trying to hide how pissed off i've been feeling, but as soon as I came in earlier I just wanted to cry. So I've been sitting here, but no, nothing. I think i have actually lost the ability to cry. I can't remember the last time I cried properly. To be honest, I don't even know why I'm so wound up.. arrrrgh. I've got more work to do this weekend, marvellous. Currently persuading my Mum to buy me a chinese for dinner. And a bottle of vodka. Hah.

I need a laydee to take to bed with me.
Maybe that would make me feel better. Actually, I'm certain it would, just the small problem of finding her. Bollocks. Foiled again.
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